Monday, December 23, 2013
4:30 AM. Aaron woke up because he was too antsy to keep sleeping. He remembered that we were out of dog food for the puppies, so he ran to the store for their food and got himself some breakfast.
5:30 AM. I woke up, more nervous than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I cuddled Indy and Buster for awhile because I knew it was going to be a few days until they would see us again.
6:00 AM. I called the hospital to see what time they wanted us there. They said 7:00 AM. So me and Aaron watched the Today Show for a little bit, then packed the bags into the Scion and were on our way to the Riverton Hospital. I was having really bad anxiety the whole way there. I didn’t know what to expect. I heard so many different things about being induced. I didn’t know what it was going to feel like. Everyone had been sharing their labor horror stories with me. I was nervous for the pain. I was nervous about how long it would take. I was nervous of potential complications. I was so shaky in the car. It was such a cold and dark morning. The sun still hadn’t come up. Aaron was such an amazing support the whole way there. He was great at keeping me calm and assuring me things would be okay, and before we knew it, we would have Evelyn in our arms.
7:00 AM. We checked into Labor and Delivery. They showed us to our room and had me change. It was right during a shift change, so it took a few minutes to get things going.
Last ever bump picture!
8:00 AM. I had the sweetest nurse. She was an older lady named Gale. She was the wife of a Lutheran pastor. She told me all about her grandkids, and how she still had so much Christmas shopping to do. She got me hooked up to the Pitocin. I had heard that once you’ve got the Pitocin going, contractions happen fast.
9:00 AM. Nothing was really happening. A few light contractions, but nothing measurable. They had turned up the Pit a few times, but I hadn’t dilated more than I was when I got to the hospital (a 4).
10:00 AM. Still nothing. Dr. Anders came in to break my water. I was also very nervous about this. It didn’t hurt at all for me. She broke it, and it was messy. After that, things started moving. I started having actual contractions. Aaron was so good at holding my hand. I would close my eyes really tight and he would talk me through it. It wasn’t the most unbearable pain. I thought it was manageable. My nurse Gale kept telling me I could get my epidural any time. I kept saying I was okay. I wanted to wait until I really WANTED the epidural. I could still manage the pain just fine. Finally Gale came back and told me there were 4 other women in labor who would probably be wanting their epidurals soon, so if I wanted one, I should get it now, because if I waited, it could be awhile. So I said, let’s do this! But I was nervous. Really nervous. I’m the world’s largest baby when it comes to needles. So I was having anxiety about it. I wasn’t worried about getting paralyzed. I was just worried about it hurting.
11:00 AM. The anesthesiologist came in. I was really scared. They had me sit on the edge of the bed and hunch my back. Gale was holding my head, and Aaron was holding my hand. When they curled my back, so much amniotic fluid came gushing out. It was so uncomfortable. The anesthesiologist was poking my back with his hands to find the right place, and it tickled, so I kept moving. But they kept trying to get me to hold as still as possible. It seemed impossible. I whispered to myself “if I can get my pilot’s license, I can do this…” And the anesthesiologist said “Hey! I’m a pilot too!” And we started talking about airplanes and airports, and flying stories, and before I knew it, it was all done. It felt like a bee sting, and that was it. Honestly, the getting the IV was worse.
Around 12:00 PM. Both sets of parents showed up to hang out and visit while we waited. Since I wasn’t feeling anything, I was able to doze in and out of naps. We were watching a TV show on TLC about Lottery Winners, and what they ended up doing with their money. Gale was able to get off early to do her Christmas shopping, so she said goodbye, and I met my new nurse Jenny. Things were progressing normally throughout the afternoon.
Around 3:00 PM. I could start feeling contractions again. They were very painful. They gave me more epidural medicine, which helped. But I could feel the pressure of contractions.
4:00 PM. I started to stagnate at a 6. I hadn’t dilated past it. Dr. Anders was worried, and didn’t want to let me sit too long in labor. She didn’t want the baby to go into distress. She said they would check again in an hour, and if I hadn’t dilated more that she wanted to do a c-section. I was so nervous. I absolutely didn’t want a c-section. Aaron’s dad, Bob, and Aaron gave me a Priesthood blessing. (Bob had given me a blessing once before. I had a bleeding ulcer that needed to be cauterized. Before they put me under, he gave me the blessing. When they went to do the procedure, they couldn’t find the bleeding ulcer. It had completely disappeared.) After the blessing, I decided to try and take a nap to relax as much as possible before they checked my cervix again.
5:00 PM. The nurse came back to check me. She said “You’re at a 10, you’re ready to start pushing!” Aaron and I looked at each other with nervous/excited faces, and kicked our parents out. Aaron took this picture of himself right before we started.
I didn’t know what pushing would be like. On the 2nd push Aaron said “Kenz, I can see the top of her head! She has hair!” This was so much motivation to me that I pushed as hard as I thought I could. I was determined for it not to take over an hour. Aaron was supporting me so great and cheering me on. The nurse was so impressed. After 15 mins of pushing, Evelyn was crowning, so the nurse went to track down Dr. Anders. It took the nurse about 15 minutes to find her. Dr. Anders wasn’t expecting us to be ready that soon. When Dr. Anders came in the room and got all her supplies ready, Evelyn came out with 2 more big pushes.
This picture might gross you out, but it was the most beautiful moment of my life.
5:58 PM. It was the most amazing feeling when she came out. The put her immediately on my chest, and it was the most beautiful moment of my entire life. There was such a thin line between Heaven and Earth. I had just brought a life into this world. This beautiful creation was half me and half Aaron, made from our love, and here she was. Living and breathing. I held onto her so tight and the tears streamed down my face. Evelyn. My precious miracle baby. The baby I thought I could never have. Aaron cut the cord, and they took her to be weighed and cleaned. I had never known such joy.
Evelyn Faye Crowder. December 23, 2013. 7 lbs 5 oz. 19.5″ long.
Our parents came in to meet their new granddaughter. It was so fun to see their faces light up as they held this sweet sweet fresh baby.
Having a baby over Christmas is magical. The hospital takes extra good care of you and goes out of their way to make things special. They gave us a stocking to put Evelyn in. They also gave us a special Christmas beanie for her.
Welcome to the world Baby Girl.