Most of our month has revolved around you eating food. I guess I forgot how difficult learning to eat was.
The first week of solids was a very messy week! 2 baths a day! But you have finally realized that it’s more fun to swallow food than take it out and rub it on your face. You eat rice cereal, applesauce and bananas. You have a very sensitive tummy, so we have had to go really slow at introducing new flavors to you. We’re going to work on sweet potatoes this week.
We went to visit our friends at Equity. They all loved you so much. They were your cheerleaders from day one. Hong especially. She ate gluten free with me for moral support and force fed me gummy prenatal vitamins. She was fighting for you just as hard as I was. More people love you than you’ll ever know!
Another one of those people is Aunt Heidi. You are extra special to her. Every day she drowns you in kisses. You always smile so big when you see her, and then you just stare. She loves you so much. She dances with you and sings to you.
We took you to Janae’s orchestra concert. You were happier as soon as I laid you on the floor, weirdo. 🙂
You are absolutely a morning person. You wake up with such a happy demeanor. You are alert and so giggly. I enjoy our mornings together!
You actually LOVE getting dressed. You’re starting to understand the sequence. You’ll lift your arms up, or your legs, or pull your arms out. You get so happy when we change your clothes.
All month long you were still wearing all your 3 month clothes. You’re a petit little baby, but the doctor isn’t worried. You’re little, but you’re solid. Lots of good muscle on you!
You only hold still in your sleep, and I’m okay with that! I love how active and wiggly you are.
I found a little fedora for you. You definitely love wearing hats! I think hats make you feel fancy 🙂
You’ve started to be aware of the dogs. You always look for them in a room. You turn to them, and you’ve started to reach for them.
You’re still a little scary to Buster. Indy seems to like you though.
This month has given me some challenging days with you. For several days on end you have been extremely fussy and upset. You don’t purple cry (which I’m grateful for) but you fuss and whine all day. There’s nothing I can do to sooth you. And the more frustrated I get, the more frustrated YOU get. You are very sensitive to my mood. I’ve had many moments were I wonder if I am cut out for motherhood. I feel completely unequipped for the job. It gets discouraging sometimes. There are times where I just cry because I don’t know what to do. I’ve said out loud to you “I don’t know what you want!” Which I know is illogical. I know you can’t tell me what you want. But I get so frustrated when I try every thing and none of it is what you want. I just want to make you happy. Being a mom is the greatest joy I’ve known, and even on the hard days, when I see your sweet little face I know that I have a forgiving Heavenly Father who is patient with my shortcomings as a mum.
You have been using my baby blanket. I know you don’t know the significance, but it seems like you have gotten really attached to it really fast. When you fall asleep holding onto it, it melts my heart. I can’t leave the nursery. I sit and watch you sleep.
When daddy is home, you two are inseparable. (Even when you are catching z’s.)
He is so good at playing with you. He gets down on the floor and makes all kinds of sounds I’ve never heard an adult make. You laugh at his dad jokes, which right now consist of blowing air on your face and in your ears.
One of my favorite things about your development, has been the discovery of your feet! You are always reaching for them and often try to put them in your mouth. It makes you giggle. I’m sure you know how silly feet-in-the-mouth are.
As you learn and grow, I learn and grow too. Please be patient with me as I learn how to be your mama. I’m still trying to figure out what works and what doesn’t work. I’m trying to be patient with myself. I promise that no matter how hard it gets I won’t throw in the towel. I’m never going to be perfect, and I’m going to make a lot of mistakes. But I’ll always love you. And I’ll never forget what a true miracle you are.