To My Quiet Internet Corner

I like that this blog is quiet.  I never get any blog stage fright when I write on GMM.  It’s nice. Is it weird that I get SO nervous each time I hit publish on Interiors By Kenz?  Maybe that sounds weird to you… but people find the craziest things to say to me over on that side of the internet.  My post for Downy Unstoppables brings the most traffic to my blog via Pinterest.  It makes me frustrated that that’s my most popular post.  I’ve done WAY cooler things than put laundry crap in a warmer.  But it’s been pinned 64K+ times.  That’s a lot.  And because of that.. I get CRAZY ladies sending me emails and posting comments on the post.  Most of them tell me I’m causing cancer.  Whatevs.  It’s just annoying.

After posting the Jumbo Jenga post,  that also brought some hate by accusing me of creating dangerous games for their children.  I’m like, “if you don’t want your kids to play it, then don’t spend the time building it for them, k??”

Anyway, I like writing on Green  Meadow Manor, because no one reads it.  And I can vent if I need.  Or remember things, if I need.  I’m not limited to a genre.  I feel bad that I’ve neglected it for the past month or so.

I feel like it’s a good place to write an update on my real life.  Yeah?  It’s mostly just for me (and whatever other curious strangers that exist out there).

I was MIA because of school.  Even IBK suffered.  But that’s done now, which is awesome.  I’m hitting the ground running with a few different clients.  It feels good to know my hard work is paying off so quickly.  Corporate life also got wild.  My old assistant was let go, so I was assistant-less for a while.  It was not the easiest.  But I now have a new assistant, who is AMAZING.  I feel pretty dang lucky to have her around.  She’s picked up so much so fast.

Remember about 3 months ago when I started my gluten free/sugar free adventure?  I hated the gym and the thought of eating bunny food?  I’m happy to report that I’ve made a complete 180.  Eating gluten free and sugar free isn’t as hard anymore.  It’s just a part of life.  Sometimes I feel left out when everyone around me is eating a delicious looking cookie, but then I remember how sick I would feel if I were to eat it.  The benefits FAR outweigh the cons.  I feel SO GOOD.  I only get sick when I eat too much sugar free candy… due to the laxative effect.  lol.  But since January of this year, I have lost 35 lbs.  I’ve been able to find the energy to work out almost every day.  I decided to cancel my gym membership because I like working out at home much better.  I have a treadmill, weight set, and a core secrets ball.  That’s enough to give me variety.  At first I started with just 15 minutes a day.  Rain or shine.  No matter what.  Even if it was just walking.  Now my workouts are 45 mins- an hour.  I LOVE it.  It’s my “me” time that I look forward to at the end of every day.  It’s where I get to watch musicals and chic flicks, and any other movie Aaron, Matt, and Karl don’t want to watch.  Then I go rub my sweaty body all over them when I’m done.

They have been the greatest support ever.  I honestly don’t know what I would do without Aaron, Matt, and Karl cheering me on.  They are my best friends, my husband, and my brothers.  I love how much we laugh in our house.  I wish I could think of funny jokes to tell you that have happened.  I’ll have to start writing them down when they happen.  You would love it.  The 4 of us have such strong personalities, but they all go together so well.

Since you are my secret corner of the Internet, I’m going to tell you a secret:
I really want a baby.  Aaron and I have been pretty baby hungry for awhile.  I am pretty open about my infertility, but not as much about my baby-hunger.  I don’t like when people say “There’s no rush!” “Enjoy the time together without kids!” “Get as much sleep as you can!”  Stuff like that cuts deep.  Aaron and I have never been on birth control since being married, which is just 2 weeks shy of being 2 years.  But I’m really happy to say that in the past 3 months since we have been actively treating my PCOS, my body has been acting like a normal lady body should.  That’s a pretty exciting thing for me, considering most of my life has been my body being messed up.  It opens the door to the possibility of being able to conceive.  Aaron and I are still big fans of adoption, but we also have a feeling that we will be able to make a baby.  Lately, I’ve wanted that SO bad.  But “they say” when you start stressing about it, you have problems and yadda yadda.  So I try not to stress about it, and think too hard about it.  But we both want it.  Bad.  Is that bad?  Some people tell us we haven’t been married long enough.  Some people tell us we don’t make enough money.  So we’ll see.  Don’t read too much into this.  I’m not horribly depressed we don’t have a baby.  The thought of pregnancy scares the shit out of me.  I just wanted to share my secret with you, Quiet Internet Corner.

Stay tuned for the 2nd installment of the Disneyland Chronicles coming later tonight!

2 thoughts on “To My Quiet Internet Corner”

  1. you know this stranger loves reading both of your blogs!

    I hate to say it, but I’m not doing as well as you with staying away from the terrible gluten. I can handle tiny amounts (like in soy sauce) which makes me think I can handle more. than I eat a handful (okay 5 handfuls) of malt balls and feel terrible for 3 solid days. it’s the worst! but then my amazing boyfriend goes out and buys me GF goodies (like cupcakes!) and I’m reminded that there are better and other ways to get my sweet fix that don’t involve gluten.

    and who cares what people say about how long you’ve been married or whatever. it’s your life and if you want babies, I say go for it. I’d hate to look back and think, “what if?” you know? 🙂

    1. You’re great Ms Paigetopus! mmmmm, malt balls…. I do love me some whoppers. But I’m like you, finding gf treats. They are definitely out there. I found an etsy bakery that makes KILLER gf/sf doughnuts. They are seriously heavenly.

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